An old friend emailed me yesterday to say hello and check-in on my life. It got me thinking….I have a few friends, not lots, not an over abundance, just a few. And among those I have a few I would consider the ultimate friend. The “best” friend. Say maybe about three. I have a few more who I probably sometimes surprise by checking in on them and they, likewise, surprise me by sporadically checking in on me. Say about 2-3 of these. And then, I also have a few more friends that I have turned a page with. Not a hard page, but a page. I still eternally care for these friends and would definitely try to support in any manner but they just seem to have life wrap around them. I understand that everyone falls into the trap of forgetting others on occasion. However, these friends that I have turned the page on are ones that time and time again I have found to be too wrapped up in their own lives or own goals to see what is going on around them. And I am sure everyone has friends like this. Think on it, the ones that never initiate the calls to check in, or rarely make the effort if you don’t reach to them, the ones who can’t be bothered to see you, the ones who always enjoy a pick-me-up but rarely particpate in it for another. Now, perhaps this sounds like I am whining or complaining. Perhaps you have no friends like this- good for you! I, however, have a few friends like this. And as I have gotten older I get less and less ok with friends like this. I try my best to give everything. In love and in life, with my spouse and with my friends. I kind of expect the same. Now some friends can only an ear- and thats enough,because they are giving their all. Other friends of mine join me for girl’s rendezvous from one side of the world to the other. Its not about what they give or do, its just about giving all they can. I’m deciding that more and more I just want to be honest. And I want a friend who knows that it is entirely possible to juggle a a best friend in the midst of life to include: a kid and a spouse and a job and a family and a pet and so on and so forth! It is possible, promise! As I mentioned, I do have a few “best” friends”- so obviously I haven’t had too many problems with all my priorities to juggle.
I guess the point is just that as I am aging I have decided more and more to tell the truth. Some of my friends won’t like it. My ultimate friends, well they’ve been used to this all along, no walking on eggshells so I doubt it will affect us much. It’s just as you get older you realize the ridiculousness of trying to be nice so someone likes you, I suppose its the same with a boyfriend or girlfriend. If you have to duck your head or be something else- why bother?! Because, at some point, and yes it really will happen, you will get so tired of being that person you had to be. Or, you will slip and let out the real person and greatly offend the person you are with and they will get upset. Just enjoy who you are. Tell the truth regardless of the cost. Ask forgiveness when required. And enjoy life.